Witch hazel and cornstarch

Just a little update. Doug got the new job with SPE(Society of petroleum engineers). We are excited about the great opportunity and Thankful to God for the blessing. Doug's a little nervous starting a new job after working for WISD for like 13 or 14 years.. whatever.. too long at WISD. Anyways they had a going away party for him last Friday and they thanked him for all his hard work and skills. They're all kinda bitter sweet about it... its like they want to be happy for him but some of them just can't get over loosing him. But they will hopefully appreciate him more when they realize all he did. Anyways... I went shopping to get all the stuff i needed for my contribution to Thanksgiving at my Mamaw's house. I'll be making a few things to take over. I'm so excited about my uncle's fried turkey and my Mamaw's cornbread dressing! with gravy! and all the other wonderful feastful foods. Well, and you can never forget the people who aren't there anymore. I love my Papaw so much and miss him a whole lot still. My cousin is having the first great grand baby and I'm sad he's not here to meet her. She'll be having her on Wednesday! Her name is gonna be Brooklyn.. cute! Ok well there's my update on life. I have to work a lot for the next two days and I'm not excited because I'm already tired! well its late but i had stuff to do with my email and when i get on the computer I do it all.. email, Myspace, blogger, and sometimes the occasional google search for whatever i need to know. last google search was for "dog tear stains.." Lila is a white dog and has been having issues with unsightly tear stains. I'm trying out a product called Eye Envy. Its supposed to control the bacterial in the wet hair caused by the tears... its apparently breading grounds for bacteria and yeast which cause the staining. Anyways.. i swear its witch hazel and cornstarch... one part is the wet stuff which smells like witch hazel and you end with a white powder and i swear its cornstarch. I haven't tasted it yet.. but we'll see.. not that i could tell what cornstarch tastes like.. Ok .. I'm done..

Our new Pastor!

Well, we got the privaledge of welcoming our new pastor at MRBC on Sunday. I felt a peace and a security again. It just felt weird not having a senior pastor. It felt like things were a little chaotic in a sense. Its just nice to have a leader again and I enjoyed his sermon. He's easy to listen to and has a sense of humor that I hope we can all experience more of. I think of God with a sense of humor a lot.. I mean look at us.. he made us beautiful but really... look in the mirror at your nose.. it just looks so goofy sometimes.. I think he laughs at us too when we do something stupid too. I know things are inappropriate sometimes but I know God has a sense of humor... He has to. And some animals look so weird and even funny.. Monkeys are cute sometimes but they look so goofy some of them... I just think its cool to think of God that way. It makes him more personal I guess.
The whole time we've been welcoming this new pastor, I've had to remember and remind myself to not compare him to Mark at all. I don't want to be compared with anybody else and he deserves the same. Mark is a great man of God, and a wonderful pastor. He's funny and so friendly and his smile screams compassion and love. Mark's wife is kinda weird though ... no I'm playing, you know I love me some Gina.. but Lash's wife is totally not Gina and can't be like Gina(Gina is a very complex personality)... ha ha... I'm just excited to make the choice to accept this new guy as our pastor without any expectations except for him to be a man of God and a humble Christian example. God will bless him and our church. I'm excited for what's to come.
Now as far as the new President Elect Obama... I can't say I'm excited because I'm so right wing... but he's gonna be President and I believe in respecting authority. I can disagree politely but with total respect. God is in control of our situation. That doesn't mean God will Bless our Country. I say that because I believe God can bless a country founded on and following His commands, morals, and ordinances. If our Country continues to move toward legalizing homosexual marriage and legal abortions... stuff that is not biblical, He can choose to not bless this great nation. I feel that the current economic situation is a direct result of every single person living above their means. No one forces a person to sign a ridiculous mortgage. No one forces us all to accrue so much consumer dept that we get in over our heads. Anyways.. there's more the the whole situation... but let me tell you this.. If my taxes get raised.. you better come see me when I do time... I'm not paying anymore taxes than I already do... I work hard for my money and I'm not sending it in to support "Programs" I don't agree with.. like welfare and socialized medicine. Socialism works... but in a perfect world. We definitely don't have a perfect world cuz we all live in it. Socialism is ... everybody works together and does their part to support and contribute to society, and in turn you are able to receive benefits and meet your needs at little to no cost to you. Like I said it works for a perfect world.. but I'm selfish and I don't want to help the people who are selfish don't want to work to do their part to contribute to society. We are a selfish people with selfish tendencies. Anyways, I'm tired and blogged too much tonight!

Out Dancing!

I went out dancing Saturday night!... It was unplanned really but I was helping a girlfriend out and we got done early, so we went out! I had never been "Country and Western Dancing" but it was so much fun. Weird but so much fun. Most of the night I just watched the other people dance. We went to Red River... They of course have the saloon in there but this dance floor was cool and new to me. It was like a skating rink really. The people hopped on and made their way around the dance floor. Some better than others! ha ha. See, I didn't know how to "Two step" but this big hick that came over and asked me to dance was determined he was the teacher for me. I was like... OK whatever. We went out there and started dancing. He liked the slow songs by the way which were boring and made me uncomfortable, because I was over on the sidelines wanting to twirl around the dance floor and move with bigger steps I guess.. this guy was like "don't pick your feet up .. just slide them.." Its kind of true but I told him I wanted to do bigger steps and he said "don't look at the other people.. just watch my feet" ha ha... Anyways.. I got out there and danced with my girlfriends though and that was fun.. they were better dancers. I didn't feel so bad after all.. I thought I was doing horrible but when you get the right partner... its better I guess.
I'm sore too, so I got a work out... but not from the two stepping though I'm sure... they played some "booty" music too... That's what I know how to do! ha ha..lol... But it just didn't seem right to see a roper out there grinding on somebody.. lol.. I'm so inappropriate! But it was funny. Anyways.. We had a blast and I needed that. Now I want Country/western dance lessons.. its easy once you know how to do it and get the rhythm down. But then you have to change it up with different partners.. It just all seemed clean fun really.. sometimes uncomfortable with a big redneck hick roper dude... But I'd never been asked to dance and that was kinda cute. I'm definitely gonna go again some time. I wish Doug liked it but I don't think he'd go so. He doesn't have a butt to shake but he can keep a beat I think. He'd probably never do it though... he's too insecure. He'd probably be afraid I'd turn him down.. ha ha. I love my husband... don't be fooled.

I've been gaining so much weight lately( and no I'm not pregnant ha ha.. that friend has come to see me this month and she let me know I'm not(Desperate Housewives anybody??)). I'm the heaviest I've ever been and I'm not happy about. I just can't seem to find the motivation.. I've hung up my "skinny(size 12)" jeans in the closet.. wrote my "I will not eat again" oath that I've broken of course.. ummm my latest thing is thinking that I'll only be able to loose weight if I get a deep freezer and fill it with lean cuisines... I'm planning on doing a reasonable breakfast and having a lean cuisine for lunch and one for dinner... for a few months until some weight comes off and then going from there.. but I don't have that deep freezer yet... I'm sure its the answer.. ha ha.. I'll have to publish my new fad diet.. "the deep freezer diet..." its gonna be cheaper than nutrisystem and Jenny Craig.. Walmart sells lean cuisines for like $2.50 I think and Nutrisystem is $10 a day and Jenny Craig is worse! oh but then you have to add in the deep freezer unless you wanna go to walmart all the time for the lean cuisine... Well if anybody wants to jump on this train with me when I get it going.. let me know and we can be "deep freezer" buddies and track our progress or lack there of.
I do wish I viewed myself in a different way but its just not the case. I actually just want my body to be healthy and at least back to my 12 or so... I feel like I'm not being unrealistic... Last time I was on Weight Watchers.. I got down to 160 lbs... about 2 years ago, and I'm not really sure I could eat for a person who weighed less than 160. Up until that point I felt at least satisfied but when I was trying to keep it off.. I just felt like I was giving up everything and felt so deprived. Its probably a spiritual thing I need to work on.. because I'm addicted to food. I've heard of ministries that deal with this sort of thing.. well addictions in general... drug, alcohol, porn, food.. and other stuff probably.. those are just the ones that come to mind. I'm curious about it...
Anyways... not to sound harsh or something but I'm just thinking... I know that some people are happy with their bodies the way they are. And that's great!... but I also know that's rare. I also know that I can look at somebody through my eyes and not see a thing wrong with them, but it doesn't change they way they feel about themselves. When people tell me I'm not fat.. that's not what I want to hear at all.... I'm not sure what I want to hear but that's definitely not what I want to hear. Maybe I'm mean for not accepting "compliments." When I hear a size 0 girl say she's got a belly.. I'm like.. "well.. I don't see it but I'm sure you see it .. so do some sit ups girl".. ha ha...(First of all, I'm not gonna tell her she's not fat... she either thinks she is and I can't change it or she's fishing for a compliment and I don't bite that kinda bate) It doesn't mean I agree with them that they are fat but I respect that they have insecurities just like me. You know, if its not fat, its teeth... if its not teeth its Acne.. if its not physical its mental insecurities, or social insecurities... it just so happens I have a little of all of them.. ha ha.. I usually just get over them and make fun of myself... That's fine with me. That's how I deal with them, at least I acknowledge them, cuz some people don't... When you don't acknowledge your insecurities.. that's when you get offended when other people acknowledge them for you...Deep thoughts..
Maybe I want people to agree with me.. "yeah Sarah you are fat.. do some sit ups girl and get your deep freezer!" ha ha.. I don't leave any room for comments on this one did I.. I hope I get all comments just like that too.. just copy and paste it.. I'll be cracking up so bad! it would be awesome!
Really though.. I'd love to get input on insecurities.. this could be free online counseling session... lets hear it... what are your insecurities or insecurities you think you might have(get iy out in the open if you want). Or What's your take on them? Am I going about it all wrong? Am I being insensitive about the issue(because my social filter might be off)? I'm curious

Saturday's over finally!

Oh I'm so glad its 6 on Saturday! That means I'm done with work for the week! Oh I'm so tired! My back hurts and my mind is so done. Its fried from all the hair color and hairspray..and stuff like that. I'm just so glad work is over. I worked a lot this past week.... and a few late nights. Its hard for me to see it as a blessing or an answer to prayer but I guess I should. I'm just so beat sometimes its hard for me to even be glad I made money.. but I guess that's how life goes... But hey..at least I know I worked hard, and God provided faithfully once again. He always gives what we need. Definately not everything I want but always what's needed. What's sad is we just want so much more than we need... so we end up less grateful at times.