Its another beautiful October Saturday out there today. I actually took the day off because a good friend of mine had her baby shower today. It was nice to not rush. I got up and made some breakfast and finished up the cake that I made for the shower. This one turned out good. I like doing it and having the finished product turn out good. I think that's how my mind works. I like tasks that I can spend time on and do it really nice. I wish there was a special job out there for me like that. I mean.. so far.. I do hair yes... but people have been asking me if I'm going to start doing cakes to make money... and people have said that I need to make tables and sell them for money too. Well .. the table for one, people wouldn't want to pay what I would charge..they'd probably just rather go buy something else. The cakes take too long... and I would feel bad charging what bakery's charge. Some cakes cost $100's, well my cake would or else i wouldn't be making minimum wage.. ha ha.. well the one last night took me about 5 hours total with baking and decorating with icing. At the hair salon, if I'm working 4 hours on somebody it usually costs about $135, but when people come in to get highlights, that's an investment cuz it lasts a long time...but a cake only lasts long enough for you to cut it and eat it and if you take a picture of it. maybe I'll make fake wonderful looking cakes and like at weddings people can hide real cake behind it or in the back of the venue. So a beautiful cake would last forever and be much more useful! ha ha...
My friend Tiffany had a great shower. She got lots of stuff she needed for the baby coming in December. My cousin is having the first great grandbaby due on Thanksgiving! I'm excited about all these babies coming. I've always loved babies. I'm that crazy lady who makes stupid faces, stupid noices, and makes up stupid words and talks goofy to the babies. Its fun.. and I don't care what I look like as long as I make them smile. Anyways.. I'm out.

Its almost 3 in the AM. I'm so sleepy. I can not sleep. My body will not let me sleep... but its not something that can be solved with sleeping aids. My actual body keeps me awake. I want to cry or scream or something. I just am not happy right now. If i had a scalpel I would probably self mutilate right now. I'm having one of those moments I think of all the crap that I hate about myself and say... Why me God? Why am I 25 almost 26 with more zits than ever? Why do I not have all my teeth? Why do I keep gaining weight? Why do I get headaches all the time? Why do I not have motivation to do something about the problems that need motivation? My body aches from work too.. my back has been killing me and well anyways! Pity party is over Sarah. Suck it up. I'm angry that I don't have health insurance and it seams like more than ever I can't afford to do what I want to do in life like my teeth, health insurance, wood floors, retire.. ok just a bit of weird humor but I've got to stop cuz I told myself the pity party is over Sarah... So, Suck it up.

I need to sleep!

Well, again.. I'm not sure what to blog about. What's going through my head right now... well I feel some relief of some thoughts that have laid heavy on my mind and heart. That's always a good thing to have relief. I wish it didn't have to be so heavy for me to have to call somebody out, but sometimes life's not fun or happy. I said what I needed to say and that's that. I prayed about it and felt a peace. Believe me, I know the feeling of... "NOOOO don't send that!! its all anger and bitterness!" God's lead me to delete 2 blogs I've written already before people saw them. I saved all of you from the fear of Sarah!... Oh you would be scared. Anyways..
The other thing on my mind is that I'm in pain... my muscles are sore.. I guess from playing soccer or working or cooking or getting up and down during church... something like that. My butt is sore, and my hamstrings are sore.. I need to go for a long walk and then stretch good while my muscles are all warmed up. But its 1:30 in the morning and I don't think that would be a good idea.
Lila was I think eating a bird either her or the neighbor cat killed.. Just on the other side of our fence was this big pile of feathers(which i thought she couldn't get out but she did).... and she kept wanting to go outside all day and I went out there to see what she was doing and there was some meat and bones.. pretty fresh too... i just hope it doesn't make her sick. So far she's ok.
I have an idea... every time I blog I'll say what I ate for the day... ha ha.. no! not hot dogs again!(I know its kind of boring but maybe it will keep me accountable... cuz i'll be honest)
Today I started out my day with an egg sandwich... Egg, ham, cheese, Mayo, and a hash brown... Later before lunch I tried to put on my clothes but failed to do so due to inability to put myself in the clothes. I felt finally led to do something.. I wrote a list... it said.. "I will not eat cheese or mayonnaise for at least 2 months.. I will limit my caloric intake and exercise at least 3-4 times a week for at least 45 minutes. I will only bake for parties and holidays. I will count my calories. I will try to exercise Lila and Doug" Oh and I made some other promises too I think... So I had a sandwich and potato salad.. (oh i said i could finish my potato salad even though it has mayo in it.) My sandwich was turkey and lettuce with some sub dressing(i know probably defeated the purpose) I threw out my homemade pudding(like sugar, cornstarch, vanilla, milk.. boiled it and everything homemade) and a peach cobbler i was dying to bake and eat with ice cream... Now I'm sad but its probably better this way. I'm going on a cruise next May and I at least want to fit in the the jeans I wore last year. For dinner we had salmon croquettes, garlic herb potatoes, and broccoli... oh man.. i put cheese on the broccoli! I'm ruined.. Cheese!!! oh my down fall.. People say it makes you constipated but if you balance it out with some broccoli its all good. anyways.. I'm embarrassed to say i had two scoops of Ice Cream after dinner. Hey .. maybe tomorrow will be a better more motivated powerful day. I'm addicted to food! I'm telling you.. I should have gotten addicted to something with less calories like Pot, or Cocaine, or Heroin... something along those lines.. Alcohol has too many calories and Cigarettes just stink... oh yeah and I did have cheese on my lunch sandwich... I don't think i can give cheese up cold turkey appearantly.

Block a User?

Hey does anyone know how to block one user from seeing your blog and comments and block them from sending you comments? I don't mind people seeing my blog until they start something .... I'm tired of people starting something.. But you know.. I guess they don't have anything better to do than to read and judge others. So, anyone know how to block a user? or do you have to block everybody at once or none at all?

Dr. Lash Banks

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Me and Lila are sitting here.. Doug's playing xbox 360.. and I think we're having hot dogs for dinner. I made a roast last night with potatoes, carrots, onion, and mushrooms! Well it was a good idea. It all turned out pretty good but the roast was not my favorite. I was a little embarrassed but I think it was the cut of meat I bought.. I can never remember what I'm supposed to buy.. there's.. chuck bottom, chuck pot, chuck whatever... there's bottom round, top round, middle round..(I'm a assuming)... Anyways.. I've bought a good one before and I can never remember which I liked... well next time I'll try again... I think this one I made last night was a bottom round something or another. Try try again!! Food is going to be a topic on my blogs I have a feeling. I love to cook when it turns out good. I'm mad at the choice of meat from yesterday but I'll just have to try again and learn. I'll not stop till its perfect or at least perfect to me.

Easy Fruit Dip

Oh my Oh my... I'm a lover of fruit dip... the kind that's made with cream cheese and sugary fluffiness..I like apples in caramel too but I'm talking about the cream cheese fruit dip.
Well, I used to make it with cream cheese, powdered sugar, whipped topping, and vanilla.. and basically try to get it to the right consistency and flavor...

Listen here people! I also love when something tastes just that great but you can make it easier!(sort of like how we have spaghetti sauce out of a jar sometimes) I have discovered the recipe for the Easier Cream Cheese Fruit dip people.

Easier Cream Cheese Fruit dip!

One 8 oz. package of cream cheese

One 7 oz. jar of marshmallow cream

Vanilla if you want more vanillaness!

I never take the credit for something if I learned it from someone else. I went to my cousin's baby shower a couple weeks ago and my Aunt made the same dip for the party. I couldn't tell the difference and she told me what she put in it. Anyways... enough blogging but I had to post because I made it today with some beautifully fragrant and tasty strawberries and it was just Divine! I like strawberries but I love them with the dip!

Beautiful Days Outside!

Today is such a pretty day outside. It wasn't very busy at the salon for a Saturday and I'm hoping its because people are out having fun with their families. Its such a great day for the State Fair of Texas or some other outdoor activity... I almost want to go ride my bike but there's always a draw back of course. It sounds weird but I don't want to leave Lila at home.. I want her to enjoy the beautiful day if i enjoy it. She's a small froo froo dog so she can't run along side a biker.. ha ha.. she'd try but she'd probably get pretty tired. I've looked up different bicycle pet accessories like a basket or whatever to put the dog in. They can get pretty elaborate and excessive, not to mention expensive. So, I haven't felt like I could justify buying something like that for $50-$80 for my dog. We already buy too much stuff for her as it is which she needs none of... it probably all messes up her digestive system because she ends up eating most of the toys we get her.. but she's fancy... fancy dog... fancy hair do... fancy clothes...fancy poop... her poop ends up being quite the rainbow of assorted colors sometimes from eating toys and such... I'll go do me some tootsie roll patrol and I'll be like.. "oh that's where that went." Anyways.. of course I'd pick out the coolest looking bicycle seat for her and she'd probably refuse to ride in it after all that hassle. I'd also probably look like one of those people who spoil their dog too if I were riding down the street with a sporty pink dog carrier on my bike .. but hey.. if Dorothy from Wizard of Oz could find happiness so can I.. and she sure nuff had a basket for Toto strapped right on her bike...

State Fair of Texas... kind of...

Well its late again... and I'm still up.. eyes wide open. I'm probably tired and don't know it. I was supposed to have a soccer game tonight but it was canceled because some lights at Pizza Hut Park caught on fire. I was bummed because it feels good to get out there and play, but I turned around and came home. I talked Doug into going on a walk with me and Lila. Work is kind of slow this week, but a long time ago a coworker of mine told us it slows down during Fair season. Well, here we are in fair season. Its weird but true... every year work slows down a bit when the State Fair of Texas comes to town! Oh don't we all love the fair... for all the wrong reasons... I mean.. I love to eat lots of food and buy jewelry and other stuff.. I don't ever buy the other stuff but I wish I could. I'd love to meet the person who actually buys a hot tub at the fair... people have to I'm sure! We used to ride the rides when we were little but somewhere along the way those rides became dangerous so we stopped. I'm just thinking about all the magic that goes on in a place like the State Fair.. and Six Flags.. Vacation... stuff like that. I need something like that right now... but I have slow work right now. Oh well.. its ok.. Lila makes me smile and Doug's around... he's ok. Tell me of your adventures at the Fair or anything like that.. What do you like to eat... corny dogs? candy/caramel apple... I'd love to know it...